Dream

Last night i had a dream, and it was one of those dreams that while it scared me, still have some comfort to it. I was standing in a field, and it was night. I was sitting their myself, and reading my bible (which to me was a surprise) As i was reading my bible, people started to come around me, some people i knew and others i've never met before. At first they didn't say anything, they just walked past me, but then all of a sudden its like i could feel a cool breeze down my back, and i turned around to see someone i didn't know stand there. they began to swipe at me and try to hit me and knock my bible away, and once they got it free form my hands, they dragged me to my feet, where the others that where walking around began to circle me. So here i am in the middle of a circle surrounded by some familiar faces and some that i didn't know. They called me everything, each one of them had something horrible to say about me, they hit me, and would laugh when they saw tears going down my face, i'd fall to the ground and they would pick me up and keep hitting at me. I was so scared, and wanted to wake up soo bad, but i wasn't able to. Why were they doing this to me, what did i do. And on the last time, someone hit my legs and they buckled and i fell to the ground face first, i wasn't able to get back up, and then all of a sudden i felt a tap on my shoulder, and i was too scared to look up, i wasn't able to take any more beating. The tapping continued until i finally looking up, and it was you, and you had tears in your eyes and you said, don't worry, it's going to be ok, i'm here, you're ok now. I just sat there, and you gave me a hug and i cried, i cried with everything in me, and the whole time you sat there rocking back and forth with me, letting me know i was safe, then you looked at me, and it's something i'll never forget, it seemed so real, you said, Everyday you will come against people who try to tear you down, but don't let them get to you, know who you are, and know how you are in Christ. Then you took hold of my hand, and said no matter what, you'll never leave my side, that you love me. Then you gave me a hug, took my hand and said you would sit with me until i feel asleep. I honestly thought someone was holding my hand. After that if was one of my most peaceful sleeps in a long time.

I'm sitting here crying as i write this, the dream blew me away, it felt so real, i really thought you were here with me. You honestly don't know how much you are impacting me, really, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. thank you for always being there and willing to comfort me and help me. By you being open and willing, God is using you to bring peace back into my life, thank you. I asked God to somehow show me he was with me, and that things were going to be ok, he chose to use you, and i'm glad.

It just goes to show, that no matter what we face, no matter what we go through, no matter the beating we get, he is right there tapping at our shoulders, telling us it's going to be ok, that he is there with us, and he'll stay with us. While my dream was soo scary, i'm glad it happened, gave me reassurance that God is with me.