Closed - OPENED!!

"What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open. 8I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name." Revelations 3:7-8

So i took this job on a ranch this summer, thinking it was going to be great, and yeah don't get me wrong it's had it's good moments, but it's had it's hard moments. Moments where i'm left standing wondering why i even took the job in the first place. Why would i want to put myself through a summer where people don't respect me, they don't like me because i'm different, they choose to leave me out when they are planning things, why is all i can ask. That was until i done my devotions the other day.

In a desperate state i cried out to God, i told him i was done with working at the ranch, it was just too hard, and then bang he began to talk and showed me the verse in Revelations. I know it was God would placed me at the ranch this summer, i know there is a reason, but a selected few people were ruining the experience for me. But after i read that verse in Revelations, i realized only God can close this door, they can't do it to me, as much as they want to get rid of me, they can't close a door that the Lord as open.

Yes i hate crying myself to sleep most nights, yes i hate sitting in the corner by myself most days, or eating meals by myself, but i have to remember it's not about those people that think they are better about it, it's about the kids that come there, and God.

There was this little boy at the camp this week and he had ADD and was tagged the "trouble kid" because of it. He would get picked on because he was little and a early incident in the beginning of the week got him more picked out, but today, he helped me realize why i was at camp. As we were talking over to breakfast, he said to his counselor Chris, "Jesus loves you" and Chris's reply was, Jesus loves you too, and this little boy goes, "yes i know he does, and i'm thankful that someone loves me." He said before he came to camp he didn't think anyone loved him, he thought he was a mistake. He was placed in a group home at a young age and don't think he has a purpose, but he said after this week his views have changed. This little kid who thought he was useless gave me the strength to go on, the strength to forget about what the other staff say or think about me, he reminded me that Jesus loves me, and that he loves me just as i am.

God opened this door for me, and only He will be able to close it on me.