I believe . . .

I trust in you . . .
I believe your my healer . . .
I believe you are all i need . . .
I believe your my portion . . .
I believe your more then enough for me . . .
Jesus your all i need!!!!

The other night i was upstairs, and i thought you were going to be there.
This morning i woke up and i thought you were going to be there. It's been months, yet some days it seems like it was just yesterday that it happened. Sometimes i wonder when will the pain go away, when will i feel ok. Then it hit me, the pain will never go away, the tears will probably never stop, but i will begin to learn how to live with it, because, Jesus is my healer. He's the one who heals all wounds, he is all i need!! There isn't anything that is not possible with his help.

Some days i sit here, and wish soo bad that i had someone i could talk to. Someone who would just understand how I'm feeling, and while my person nature wishes that someone was a physical person, most often it is not. People have busy lives, so most times I'm left on my own, and I'll admit at first it was hard, but I've learned and I'm still learning that, He's always there for me. People will always come and go, people will always have other things to do, other places to be, but He will never leave my side, no matter what.

This past year, I've been hurt pretty bad, from a lot of different angles in my life, and it's left me pretty beaten and bruised, but it has also left me stronger. At first i didn't see any good, but as the days goes on, little pieces of the picture are being reveled to me. Someone once told me that in order for you to be able to be fixed, you need to be completely broken, and after this past year i was left completely broken, and at first i didn't like it, but now i know that it was needed so that God can make me into the person that i am meant to be. There is a song that says, "The same power that conquered the grave, lives in me, You're love that rescued the earth, lives in me" Powerful words, but yet so true. That same power lives in me, and it's a great responsibility, one that we have to live out each and everyday. No matter how bad we've been hurt, if we fully trust in God and his power then we will overcome it all, because with Him all things are possible. Even the word IMPOSSIBLE says IM POSSIBLE!!!

Yeah, it's been a brutal summer, i cried a lot, i questioned a lot, but i learned a lot. I learned that I'm able to overcome more then i think. I learned that through my brokenness i am able to grow, if i just believe.

I trust in You. I know you are my healer, and i know you are mending me and molding me. Nothing is impossible with you in my life. Jesus you are all that i need.